Tuesday, December 30, 2008

I am blessed

I have been having a rough 4 days. REALLY rough. Something just happened to set things back.

A man walked into my office a few minutes ago. (crazy I know that a man would walk into an office) He looked a little rough. He introduced himself and asked if I had any work for him. I told him that the office was a bit slow at the moment, being the holidays, but that I would try to find an application for him to take with him. He stopped me and told me that would not be an option as he has no cell nor home. He is living at the mission in town.

Even as tough a time as I have been having, I feel better about this past year and how much I have grown. I have a "real" job now. I have a nice place to live. I have food when I need it. My life is good. It's tough, but good. I'm at a better place. I'm ready to have a woman for a girlfriend instead of a girl. I'd say that I need a woman instead of a girl. I'm standing up. I usually buy dinner when I go out (unless it's my birthday; thank you Jackson and Heather). I have friends. I have a good life.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008


"Its the holidays, I have a lot to think about and life is wonderful. I have very little to complain about. I am the luckiest woman I have ever met and I just keep getting luckier."
--a friend of mine

Merry Christmas/Hannucka/Quanza/whatever you celebrate/and all that

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Passive aggressive

I'm going to figure out how to kill it. It seems to piss some of my friends off, so this is now one of my goals. I think this was part of the tough night I had last night before the movie. Hmmm. I think I'm gonna do some reading on this.

So, last night I went to see the new James Bond film. I believe that Daniel Craig is an excellent actor, but I was disappointed with the movie. The story had some really good potential and the director tried to bring that out.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Words of wisdom

I understand that I do not understand.

Everyone is a work in progress.

In other news, I cannot wait for two things. 1. To see the look on Heather's face when she sees her birthday/Christmas present. 2. To get my new rock shoes and get climbing!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Only children and having mentors around

Another post I wrote...
"A thought on only children. You mentioned a special challenge in keeping them from feeling lonely. I have a younger brother and I still felt VERY lonely when my parents were going through a divorce (I was 15 when I realized it was going to happen and it happened at 17). And I felt like I lost my brother somewhere in there. Then I ended up moving in with my mom after finishing HS. There was a comm college near where she and my brother lived, so it was the obvy choice. I got past this by finding and burying myself in given hobbies (computers, climbing). Then later as I was becoming an adult, I got my brother back. One of the things that helped was the random stanger that befriended me. I think that something that might help an only child would be to keep a good company of adult mentors that can help. It's not that they would spend regular time with the kid, but whenever they started building friendships you know.

I think that this is something of my calling. I'm not sure, but it feels like it. Just being a mentor to the kids of the people who are really important to me. I feel like that is why I'm here (in the child free part of life).

I guess I work a lot

This is a post that I put up on Christian Forums regarding my social life.
"hmmm.. Well, I'm not married yet. So, IDK what that will be like. But I'm not really crazy with booze or debauchery. I'm currently working through hard on Guitar Hero 3(?) with a friend. He and I have been through some times for sure. Our beliefs are VERY different, but I try to hang with him at least once a week.
I have a group of friends who play poker. There are about 5 or 6 of us who are pro or semi-pro. I try to meet with some of them at least once a week to keep my game sharp and continually growing.
My rock climbing job takes a night each week too! I love teaching! I was asked if I was a middle-school teacher a couple of weeks ago; this lead me into the bigger Q of not wanting kids, but that's another thread.
Then I work on other projects: a website for a law firm, analysis of a poker database/poker website management, my own blog of course, and once in a while I will have a lighting tech rehearsal for my church.
On the weekends, I work a shift at the desk for my climbing gym and run lights every other other Sunday. I try to go have a drink with my best friend Heather at least once a week too. Usually it's chai, but sometimes its a good scotch or cognac.
Man, I didn't realize that I work so much."